I think I am finally at a point where I can say I am over, or at least mostly over and beyond, my feelings for Elaniah. Sometimes I will see something or hear a song that triggers feelings of loss and rage, but generally I think I can say that she is out of my mind and more or less completely out of my life.

Got a raise at work last month. It's really not very much--in fact it's the bare minimum I would have accepted without quitting outright, but it is enough that it is less for me to worry about with my day-to-day expenses while I keep scouring the job market for something better in my field. It's slim pickings to be sure, but I'm determined to keep looking at least for another few years before I give up hope.

In other news still kicking myself over the situation with Esprit. I had not realized my opportunity to pursue a relationship until after the fact (when it was no longer a plausible option); why I never gave it real consideration at the time is anyone's guess. Maybe I thought that she wouldn't have even considered it; maybe I was enjoying the status quo enough to not think about moving it to something more. Regardless, I'm a damn fool and dealing with the consequences.