Sometimes I wonder if my view of friends is slightly skewed and/or distorted. Do I value my friends that much more highly than most? Maybe I'm just not as close to someone as I thought. I thought we were very close--we hung out a lot, we've even got a picture or two of us together. Yet upon checking out this person's photo album on Facebook, I see plenty of pictures of herself and other people, yet not a one of myself. Yes, I know it's only a little thing. But it's one of many little things, and little things add up.

08 Nov 2005 Update

Well I think it's pretty safe to say that yes, I will be single for a while. At least as far as I can tell, I don't think there are any ladies out there with any romantic interest in me, and I'm not feeling a strong pull towards anyone right now. Okay, I am feeling a strong pull, but one of those ladies isn't interested in me romantically, and I have agreed with the other not to do the long distance relationship thing again. So barring those two people, I'm not feeling a strong romantic pull towards anyone. But hey, I am no seer so that could change. In other news I've been looking into a single apartment for next year. Just a place that I can call my own, but big enough that I could possibly share it with another person if need be. The one that I really have my eyes on right now is about $430/month plus electricity. It doesn't have cable, but right now I don't see that as a big problem since I don't watch much television anyways. I'm going to follow up with the landlord on this one later this week and see if he would be willing to come down a little bit on the rent, and also to see if the range and furnace are electric or gas. Speaking of money, I'm also looking at getting another part-time job. Because let's face it, right now I'm getting paid $6.50/hour at Wilson's, which will probably increase after Christmas--and I plan at staying at Wilson's for a while. In comparison, right now I only get paid $5.75/hour and $5.80/hour for working the front desk and security in Towers, respectively. Now the front desk I can keep doing because those are 3 hour shifts that I can likely work into my class schedule; however, the security shifts are really just not worth my time when I live off-campus. So... I'm looking for another part-time job. With any luck, I'll be able to pick up a job at a movie theater to fuel my need to see movies. The other main reason for another part-time job/replacement job is because I'm having trouble keeping up with my bills right now, and I hate having to sponge off of my parents for money. Granted, they take care of my rent for me, but I still have to cover the utilities not in escrow, a car payment, a cell phone bill, gas, food, basically everything else. I mean, payday was this last Friday, and we'll say that I made about $200 (rounding down for simplicity). I had a car payment ($100), the utilities ($50), and food to buy so I can eat ($50). Entire paycheck--gone. So I had to call Mom today and ask her to put like $20 in my checking account so I can put gas in my car. ~*Sigh*~ And speaking of my checking account, I need to call my bank tomorrow because they billed me the $10 fee for a new debit card (mine got eaten). Well I got a slip in the mail with my new PIN... but no debit card. So they need to send me another one---and if they charge me another $10 I'm going to kick some ass. But I think this post is long enough already, so we'll end it on that ass-kicking note.