I begin to wonder if I have drunk too deeply from the cup of love. I have felt something that not even everybody gets to experience in a single lifetime... and I desire to feel it once again. I am at a loss for words to describe exactly what I'm feeling right now. I can only hope that one day, years down the road when I am happily married with a wife and some children that I may look back and say that I learned something from all of this. That the emotional pain and loneliness had a purpose, that what I am going through right now is merely part of a larger lesson for my eternal soul. I can only hope...